Trust me, I do.

how much I fuckin' hate JAMAICA HIGH SCHOOL! Damit, how hard is it to pick up the fuckin' phone, HUH?

Anyway, I guess if I can't get through the school by Monday, I'm going to have to contact another school to do my field experience. I still can't believe how much work I have this semester...

Hm, what else? Wahaha, j'adore brevity.

For those who go on ff.net, I highly recommend reading author Miko-chan's works, particularly the one entitled The Conspiracy. She's really got talent to be envied.

         Anyway, right now my family is dealing with a special case of 'empty nest syndrome,' post-holiday break.  All the relatives -- eighteen in total -- have gone from the house and it is now eerily quiet, a little lonely, even. That's the worst part of having guests over, I think: it isn't having to accomadate and entertain them, but the vacant feeling that comes when they all leave... That's the most difficult. Then again, that might be just me.

Settling back to school for winter semester certainly helps with the quietness, though. It makes me nervous that I'm trying to learn a whole new language in a matter of four/five weeks, but the professor is really helpful and kind, and she makes it fun. Anyway, at least learning French will benefit me during my possible trip to Paris in March.

As for the Fall semester, I was astonished to find I got mostly A's and A-'s... save for one class which, ironically enough, I thought I was going to be my best class grade. I received a C in Psych Lit, and I must say that I really don't think I deserved such a low mark. What a BULLSHIT grade. Honestly! As for Spring sem., I've no idea what to expect.

And work? Fairly okay... My bosses are so nice to me, so I can't complain, and I have one favorite student who's improved considerably in her reading skills. It makes me really proud. My employer is in the process of trying to hire another worker at the center, so these two students (seniors) of Primary Education came in for a brief interview today. Well, their visit brought to my attention that teachers are mandated to, what?, renew their certification every five freakin' years! And it takes six months to prepare each time the exam is taken! How troublesome...

If I stick to teaching secondary school as a lifetime career, I suppose I'll eventually get used to that protocol, but I reminded myself today that I am supposed to keep my options open. Honestly, so much can happen within the next ten years of my life; why should I limit myself to only one strict path? It's scary not knowing what exactly is going to happen, it still frightens the hell out of me, but I like to think that everything will eventually fall into place. Not just for me, but for everyone that I care about.

Damn'it, I'm getting preachy again. Talk about long-winded!

Abientot!

- sailor m